Oh please

I wish I trusted people more. I am very naive and trust people even when I first meet them. But if something happens that makes me very suspicious of them (justifiably suspicious) I find it's very hard for me to trust them again. I interpret things they do suspiciouslly, and it sucks.

There are some people I trust implicitly. I love them and know they would never betray me. Even some of these people I just met in law school I just know I can trust. It's an odd feeling being so trustful and yet suspicious at the same time.

I got called "wife material" the other day. I was told that guys who are just looking to have a good time won't want to date me because they know I'm so amazing that they don't want to date me yet. I think that's crappy. Not that I want to get married, please. But are guys so scared of marriage that they can't even be with someone who might work out in the long run?

I also think it's pretty crappy when people say "you deserve someone better than me." Not that this lends credibility to this entry, but Angel said that to Buffy today in the episode. That's crap. If you're too good for us, isn't that our call? You're not doing it for our own good, you're using it as an excuse. If we want to go slumming, then let us. Or, be a man and tell us the real reason you're breaking up with us. I doubt that 1/4 of the guys who use that excuse are doing it because they legitimately want their girl to be happy and know that they're not good enough for her. I think if you love someone enough, you can BE good enough for them.

I don't know where this all came from. I think I'm just fed up with boys. There are the good ones, don't get me wrong. But the ones that would be wonderful to me I don't want and the ones who are assholes are the ones who have enough confidence to go after me. Or, they have enough confidence to go after me and not be up my ass about it. Guys - don't be up a girl's ass. No one likes clingy people. You can more than show her you like her without jumping up there.

In other non-related news, busy weekend this weekend. Brownies tonight and then hanging out with the 1Ls tomorrow, then Joseph on Sunday. Busy busy. I actually have a lot to do this weekend, so I probably shouldn't be doing all I'm doing, but oh well. This is my last weekend of freedom before we get our memo ::gulp:: I'm going to feel guilty, the whole time, I know it. I'll have to get up extra early tomorrow to start work so I can feel accomplished and not guilty when I go out. Speaking of, maybe I should get to that now.